the little dipper ([info]hunnycake) wrote,
@ 2009-03-09 16:49:00
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sick at heart

         do you know what it feels like to come home to an empty house everyday? to wake up, only to realize that no one is there and, worst of all, that no one would want to be there; and then yearning to dive back into the softness of pillows and have dreams of a happier world. to hold hands with someone who gives you a disgusted face whenever you are under the weather. to go days without really talking to someone, communicating. to be surrounded by people who claim to love you with all their hearts as a friend, as a lover, and yet... to feel none of that love. to eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner alone. to wonder what happened to the life you knew.



         while walking home, i saw a tiny grandfather feeding his stubborn granddaughter a nectarine next to a bus stop. his face wrinkled in a laugh as he gazed at her snowy face, which was graced with a childish scowl. i wish someone would smile and hug me when i am cheerless.


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[info]mis_fracture_x
2009-03-10 01:11 am UTC (link)
I feel like this all the time and the scary thing is I think I will be that way forever.I know how terriable the aching feels like.I still have hope that someday there will be someone there for me to come home to and sleep with .I have faith that you will too xoxoxo

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[info]hunnycake
2009-03-10 01:52 am UTC (link)
it aches too much, it's all i can ever think about nowadays. i am scared also. i hope we both find that person xx

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[info]quolloquial
2009-03-10 01:15 am UTC (link)
I will always, always listen to you!

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[info]hunnycake
2009-03-10 01:52 am UTC (link)
aw wow,
thank you tabitha x

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[info]cadenzed
2009-03-10 01:18 am UTC (link)
i'm lonely as well,
we should all be alone together. ♥

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[info]hunnycake
2009-03-10 01:54 am UTC (link)
we should, we should.
it would be amazing
if every lonely person
could be together
the world would be so much less lonely!
xx

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[info]minhthegenius
2009-03-10 02:04 am UTC (link)
i feel lonely too

you can always come over so we can talk over some coffee at starbucks with me.

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[info]hushednostalgia
2009-03-10 02:25 am UTC (link)
my thoughts exactly
you're not alone in this

i hope you find that person
you are extra special !!
x

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[info]x1onexwo1fx
2009-03-10 02:39 am UTC (link)
userpic: LOST IN TRANSLATION.

amirite?

love that movie. =D

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[info]hushednostalgia
2009-03-10 02:59 am UTC (link)
haha yes
:)

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[info]x1onexwo1fx
2009-03-10 02:40 am UTC (link)
nancyyyy ;__;

we should talk.

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:15 am UTC (link)
we should talk more :[

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[info]azirca
2009-03-10 03:50 am UTC (link)
miss nancy, if I was near I would smile and hug you when you are cheerless.
i shall send virtual hugs your way to let you know that you are not alone.
*hugs*

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:15 am UTC (link)
thankyou, i feel so much better now! xx
*hug*

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[info]flockofgulls
2009-03-10 04:06 am UTC (link)
Oh darling. You are so beautiful. Your tender heart is going to waste by such people. I feel confident you will know true happiness one day.

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:16 am UTC (link)
aww.. i hope so :) thankyou, the love all over your journal is such an inspiration to me.

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[info]herskyline
2009-03-10 04:23 am UTC (link)
I feel that unbearably loneliness everyday. It's an empty ache. I daydream of a lover far too often, just someone to be with every single day, all the time.

You're such a charming girl, I'm sure you will find somebody just like you daydream of, that loves you very much. ♥

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:16 am UTC (link)
you will find someone as well, i promise! we both will :)
xx

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[info]luella
2009-03-10 04:46 am UTC (link)
my pretty bby seastar, i've felt the same exact way more times than i can count; but, i always end up finding something to make me happy and i'm sure you'll end the same, possibly even more than that!

just know that i understand you, and you always have me :D

i hope these can cheer you up: one, two, three!!

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:18 am UTC (link)
thankyou big sister i love you with all my heart!
& i super love your letters to pieces, i have them lying next to my bed, hehe.

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[info]ghostknees
2009-03-10 04:16 pm UTC (link)
I'm so sorry. You are far too beautiful of a soul to be going through those feelings. I hope you'll find your light soon. You will. I'll listen to you whenever you need to. Much love, xo

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:18 am UTC (link)
thank you, you're so very very sweet ♥

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[info]lungulitis
2009-03-10 11:14 pm UTC (link)
I know I've told you this over and over (or maybe it was only once, I'm not sure. (I've thought it over and over before, though. Maybe that's why I'm confused.)) but you remind me of Brod from Everything Is Illuminated because the sadnesses you write here are so distinctly different from one another, like her 613. (Although I hope you never experience as many sadness as she did.)

I think loneliness is such a distinct feeling. It's not only the absence of others, but the absence of less physical things. Love? Feeling? Emotion? Self? I hope you find these things, and perhaps your emptiness will be filled.

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:24 am UTC (link)
i think i'm going to reread Everything is Illuminated soon to try to grasp why :)
thankyou ♥

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[info]_forluna
2009-03-11 01:36 am UTC (link)
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:( ♥

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:22 am UTC (link)
alison!
♥♥♥
we must meet over the summer, along with everyone else :)

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[info]ilovemkandtheoc
2009-03-11 01:48 am UTC (link)
this is so sad and beautiful.♥

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:21 am UTC (link)
♥

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[info]lali_sweety
2009-03-12 12:58 am UTC (link)
Gorgeous!
I love a lot of your pictures! I was wondering if you mind me making icons or banners with them. I'll give you credit if I ever make anything.

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:21 am UTC (link)
of course :)

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[info]window_light
2009-03-12 08:13 pm UTC (link)
i looked at your recent entries. you're such a pleasant bright subtle daydream (:

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:21 am UTC (link)
thank you,
your entries always cheer me up x

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[info]nightnightnight
2009-03-13 06:53 am UTC (link)
can I just say

you stole these words from my mind
someone's getting sued.

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:20 am UTC (link)
hehe angiee~
let's go to Disneyland again,
i miss it :(

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[info]nightnightnight
2009-04-12 04:57 pm UTC (link)
me too! i've been thinking about how i want to go there

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[info]alovepunch
2009-04-06 10:45 am UTC (link)
friends maybe?

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[info]hunnycake
2009-04-10 05:20 am UTC (link)
okay :)

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[info]chailin
2009-06-06 08:38 pm UTC (link)
Hello :)
We have quite a number of mutual friends and though I haven't poked around in about a year for new friends, I fell in love with these words and am so curious about the girl behind them. Would you mind if I added you?

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